Whoops

I guess we won't be eating at our dining room table until all the adoption paperwork is filled out and sent. I have the paperwork in piles, the ones I need to fill out, the ones TC needs to fill out, and another that is already filled out. It's on one side of the table and I thought it was far enough away from JT when he eats. Well he had put his frosty glass on the table and it sweated (is that a word?) and got some of the papers wet. Whoops.

On other news today was Day 1 of me working out. TC got us a membership at a gym that is literally a block from our house. Nice! I started slow and did the treadmill for 30 minutes. I didn't want to over do it since it was my first day. Plus I was hungry and new I'd be very dizzy at the end, which I was. Now to work onto weights and hopefully get a new routine and get myself in shape and toned. Along with getting my heart strong which is what my cardiologist wants.

Life and all that goes with it

Wow I didn't realize it's been 3 days since I last wrote. I didn't mean to leave you all hanging after my announcement of possibly going back to school. After talking with a few friends (thank you!) I've decided to take it slow and once Daddy and I are situated (with jobs and a house) I'm going to take a Chemistry class (it's required for the RN program) and see how it goes. I am not a fan of Chemistry (who is?) and actually never had to take it in high school. So I'm very scared on how I might do. Can you see me playing with things that could possibly explode? Eep!

Daddy and I looked at an apartment yesterday, a townhouse this morning and will look at another apartment this afternoon. It's really hard to look when we don't know where his next job could be. I did hear back from one job I applied for and they hired someone else. Fine with me, I didn't really want to move to Duluth. I do hope we hear from the other jobs soon.

This economy is awful (and those who say otherwise really need to get their heads out of the sand). I heard that there are at least 50 people applying for one job. Yuck. I wonder if I have a better shot at winning the lottery...hmmm...maybe not.

We were so busy yesterday I never got my 20 minute workout in. I was going to do it tonight and again I don't think I'm going to have time. This is NOT good. I'm on week 2 and not off to a good start. I'm thinking of doing them back to back and work out Wed, Thurs, and Fri. Or maybe Wed Thurs, and Sat. Since Thursday will be the long, tough workout and I may still be sore on Friday. I'm on a mission to lose this gut of mine before summer.

Life and such

Today I weighed myself so I can start keeping track of how much weight I lose (if any). I've lost 5 lbs since December. Thinking back to what happened in December and the fact all I was eating was chocolate (and very little of anything else) I've come to realize maybe I was more stressed out over what is going on (with my nephew) than I thought. I also measured my waist and am hoping to lose 2 1/2 inches. Yep it's that big. Eep!

As you all know I'm reading the book Love and Respect. I highly recommend this book to all married couples, even couples who are engaged and going out. It truly is an eye opening book. Dr. Eggerichs talks about how God commands husbands to love their wives but doesn't really state to wives to love their husbands. That's because we already do that. It's programmed in us. What isn't programmed in us is respecting our husbands.

This has really hit home to me. I never had any role models so to speak in the marriage area. My parents don't have a marriage. My mom yelling at my dad all the time and pretty much telling him what he was doing wrong. Then seeing him go into himself and just shut down. This book made me see how my mom wasn't respecting my dad and my dad was reacting the only way he knew how, by shutting down. My mom wanted love, my dad wanted respect. Neither was/is showing each other love or respect and so begins the Crazy Cycle (as Dr Eggerichs describes). Unfortunately my mom sees everything as my dad's fault (and my dad not able to communicate why he's not loving my mom) and unfortunately this Crazy Cycle is continuing.

A couple weeks ago I was talking to my mom (which unfortunately looks like will be the last time for a long time) and she said she was wondering when the fairy tale life will start (meaning a wonderful life, with no conflict in anything; ie, marriage). At the time I kind of agreed. Well, not kind of, I did agree. As I get deeper in this book and look at my own life I realize I am living a fairy tale. God has given me a wonderful, caring and supportive husband. He has given us the tools (and the open mind) to know how to make our marriage better. He has continuously blessed us even during the hard times. We still act like we are going out. We talk, joke, hold hands, and snuggle.

I think back to when my mom was my age. By 30 she had 4 kids (ranging from 2 months (twins, by the way) to 6 years) and one daughter who was very sick (me). She would talk about the things my dad didn't do during this time and the years following and how she had to do it all herself. As I look back my dad did help out, a lot. He did everything my mom asked of him. Many things he did without complaining. My mom couldn't see that unfortunately. Now I look at my marriage. I see how Daddy and I both work together. I see the respect we both have for each other. I see how we both can turn to each other in our times of weakness.

To that I thank God. Thank you for having Daddy and I find each other. Thank you for the joy you have shown us. The love we have for each other is because of you and through you. I am thankful Little Man will see how because of God all things are possible. Even when things are tough.

Working out and parenting at it's best

Today was day number two of me working out. Today I did the 30 minute workout. Since yesterday didn't go so well with Little Man not wanting me to 'dance' I decided I will workout at night. Well...Little Man was doing his normal routine of getting out of bed. I was in the middle of the warm up when he came out and did not want me to work out. I put him back to bed and started my workout. While working out I kept peaking towards his room to make sure he stayed in bed.

As I'm doing the cool down I peak towards his room and here he is sitting in a time out. Well since I would have done that anyway he beat me to it. He was just sitting there looking at his hands. I finished my workout and put him back to bed.

I'm going to consider today day 1 of my workout and workout Mon, Wed, and Fri and maybe a Sat here and there. I don't want to overdo it right now and may pick up once I get into it. Hopefully by this summer I won't mind wearing a T-shirt.

On a mission

To loose this gut of mine. Last year I was on a mission to work out 3-4 days a week and lose about 10-15 lbs. Well a treadmill is too boring for me. I need variety. So I got a cardio workout DVD and a couple weights and today was Day 1 of me working out.

It took me 3 trys to get through the 20 minute work out but I did it! I started it this morning thinking Little Man might join in. Nope, he started screaming/crying 'Mommy no dance!'. It really was heartbreaking. So I quit. Tried again when I thought I had time while he was taking a nap and he woke up. So I finished it tonight. It feels so good to get my heart going and hopefully lose this gut and maybe a few pounds too.

I'll keep you all posted on how I do.