Happy Birthday, JT

Four years old! I can't believe JT is 4 years old today.

I also think about S today. I wonder if she thinks of JT. If she starts getting anxious for our pictures and letter as we send them around the end of July. Is she OK with her decision. Is she happy with how we are raising JT? Will she ever want to meet us?

So many questions go through my mind but I just concentrate on watching JT have the time of his life on his birthday.

We went and saw Toy Story 3 today. Great movie!! JT was enthralled. He loved it. We opened presents had tacos for supper and had a Toy Story cake with ice cream. He is now tucked in bed with his new toys close at hand. (Like the new Cars laptop from A&B).

I am exhausted and ready for bed.

I love this house!!

I'm sitting here at our kitchen table doing some work on my laptop. I missed work yesterday and will miss work again Friday afternoon for A's sisters wedding. So I wanted to make up as much time as I can without having to use vacation. I'm sitting here working away when someone knocked on the door and rang the bell

Let me interrupt and ask, who does that? Pick one, ring the bell or knock. Don't do both. Oh and the knock was the infamous da dada da da duh duh. Really who does that on some one's door? OK ranting done.

I have two rules about answering my front door; 1.If we're expecting friends I'll answer it and 2.I don't have to answer it if I don't want to.

And tonight I don't want to because we aren't expecting anyone and plus the knock and doorbell gave me the willies. None of our friends do that.

And the reason I love this house. I didn't have to and they didn't know we are home because the window doesn't look into our whole house like the other house did. I have sat on my couch and had some weird old man looking in my front door window ringing the bell at our old house motioning me to answer it (JT wasn't home). Just because he could see me doesn't mean I have to answer it. I did not feel safe watching TV at night in our old house. Even if I had the lights off someone could see me sitting in the livingroom. In this house if they look in they'll see a wall with hooks and coats on it. Ha!

LOVE IT!

P.S. 4 1/2 more days until the consult!