Feeling down

I've been sick since Monday. I am feeling much better. Not throwing up but have been nauseous every now and then. I'm still not eating a lot (maybe that's a good thing). But my sinuses are still plugged. I can breathe at least but you can tell when I talk that I'm sick.

Back to being nauseous, I was telling my coworker yesterday that I was feeling sick to my stomach and how I didn't feel like this when I was throwing up on Monday night. She then made the comment about 'Gasp, maybe your pregnant.' I had to tell her unless some HUGE miracle happens (like Daddy's vasectomy that was done about 6 years ago all of sudden reverses itself.), that ain't possible. Although I have been thinking about it for the past 2 weeks. I'm late (well given the fact my cycle isn't 'normal'. I get it every other month. This should have been the month for it to come.) and last week I only had mild spotting for 2 days (if that) and that was it. And add that even though I lost 4 pounds my stomach has decided to get even bigger.

*Gasp* I'm pregnant. I wish it were that easy.

I've started reading more into Embryo Adoption at our agency. I was always turned off by it and honestly slightly repulsed. But now I think it's the sweetest thing. I brought it up to Daddy last night and he flat out said NO. He's still repulsed by it.

So, I'll just sit here and feel sorry for myself. I'm very worried about finding money for our 2nd adoption. I know I shouldn't but if we do the embryo adoption we could almost start this summer. There's a lot of things I would need to do to see if I'm able to do it and if I am, there will be lots of shots and pills I'm sure I'm going to need to do.

Also, the thought of possibly having multiples (like twins) is very appealing to me as our family would almost be complete...or even fully complete.

I will continue to pray that God gives me patience and strength. I ask for your prayers too.